Fifth Sunday After the Epiphany (Year C)
TEXTS: Isaiah 6:1-13 and Luke 5:1-11
In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, high and lofty; and the hem of his robe filled the temple. Seraphs were in attendance above him; each had six wings: with two they covered their faces, and with two they covered their feet, and with two they flew. And one called to another and said: “Holy, holy, holy is the LORD of hosts; the whole earth is full of his glory.” (Isaiah 6:1-3)
Simon answered, “Master, we have worked all night long but have caught nothing. Yet if you say so, I will let down the nets.” When they had done this, they caught so many fish that their nets were beginning to break. So they signalled to their partners in the other boat to come and help them. And they came and filled both boats, so that they began to sink. But when Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus’ knees, saying, “Go away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man!” For he and all who were with him were amazed at the catch of fish that they had taken. (Luke 5:5-9)
Why do you think people come to church? Ever asked that question?
In trying to answer that question, I’ll wager most committed Christians would say something about wanting to get closer to God.
Isn’t that one of the aims of a worship service? To help people draw near to God? To experience the presence of God? To encounter the living Christ?
Certainly, worship should be about all of that. But sometimes I wonder whether we really know what it is we’re seeking. We want to keep things calm and undisturbed and peaceful. We want a consistently warm and comfortable environment, because we think that will nurture our awareness of God’s presence.
However, when I read the biblical stories about people encountering the presence of God, what I do not see is calmness and peace and curated joy. No. What I see is awe, and even terror; a cataclysmic sense of vulnerability. I see people throwing themselves down on their faces, thinking they’re about to die. I see people who are suddenly not so sure they want to be close to God at all.
Maybe we need to think again about what it is we’re looking for on Sunday mornings.
In today’s readings we hear two well-known examples from scripture.
Isaiah went into the temple, probably not expecting anything different from what he usually experienced there; just a quiet time of prayer or a familiar participation in the corporate liturgy. But, suddenly, he is confronted by a dazzling vision of God—“high and lifted up”—seated on his throne and surrounded by seraphs: startling, six-winged entities who call out, “Holy! Holy! Holy!” so loudly that the foundations of the temple shake and the whole house fills with smoke.
Isaiah falls to his knees saying, “Woe is me! I am lost, for I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips; yet my eyes have seen the King, the LORD of hosts!”
Then there’s Simon Peter, going about his business as a fisherman. He’s met Jesus. In fact, Jesus has already healed his mother-in-law. However, at this point, he only thinks of Jesus as a rabbi with some success in prayers for healing. But in a surprising encounter in his own workplace, Peter suddenly hears the angels singing “Holy! Holy! Holy!” once again. He falls to his knees in anguish, pleading, “Go away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man!”
It’s a sentiment echoed in Paul’s First Letter to the Corinthians, where—after referring to his own encounter with the risen Christ—he immediately declares his own unworthiness: “For I am the least of the apostles and do not even deserve to be called an apostle, because I persecuted the church of God” (1 Cor. 15:9).
What is going on in these Bible passages? And how does it relate to our own hopes for greater closeness to God?
To be sure, God is love. And, yes, love can be comforting and welcoming and even familiar. Sometimes, though, there is also something absolutely terrifying about love. And when it arrives suddenly and unexpectedly and hits you like a freight train … you might get flattened. At the very least, you might fall to your knees.
We all know this. We’ve all observed it. Most of us have experienced it, to some extent. You know it especially if you have ever betrayed one whom you loved, and then experienced that person forgiving you. Knowing that, despite the pain you’ve caused them, they love you still. Looking into their eyes, you cannot stand it. And even though you’ve just been given the most precious gift in the world—one you begged for—deep inside you, something cries out: “Get away from me. I’m not worthy. I’ve sinned against heaven and against you. Punish me as I deserve and leave me!”
There is something about that look of deep love and desperate pain that burns holes in you, that rips away all your defences and leaves you standing naked. You know that you are loved, but it is more than you can bear.
I think that is what happened to Isaiah. I think that is what happened to Simon Peter. I think that is what happened to Paul. And I think that, at some point, that is what happens to each and every one of us if we would draw closer to Jesus Christ. For some, it happens at the moment of their conversion. For others, it can happen at any point along life’s path. God knows when you need it, but for everyone there comes a point where you’ve come as far as you can go on the journey of faith and the way ahead can only be trod by those who have looked deeply into the face of Christ.
For in that face is a love so high and so deep, so long and so broad that it can encompass the entire universe, that it can rejoice at the hatching of a sparrow and make stars explode to celebrate the return of a lost son. And in that face is the agonized pain of one who feels nails tear through his flesh with every litre of pollution that flows into the oceans, with every land mine that tears the limbs off a child, and with every thought, word or act by which you or I show ourselves to be less than human, less than we know we can be, less than the images of God that we were created to be.
When you look into that face, when you are engulfed by the extent of that love and that pain, you will, like Isaiah, feel like you are going to die; like no one can come out of such an experience alive.
Many a person gets stuck at “Go away from me, Lord.” They hold Christ at arm’s length, and for the rest of their lives they tell him, “Don’t come any closer.”
What will you do when you meet Jesus? Will you hold his gaze? Or will you avert your eyes?
That is the choice you have when confronted by the love of Christ. In fact, that is the choice you face at every step of the journey, at every experience of the love and goodness of God wherever it finds you. You can choose to turn away your face, say “No further, God,” and repress the memory, or you can fall deeper into the arms of Jesus, abandon yourself to his mercy, and go with him wherever he leads you next. You can be sure that just like Isaiah, Peter and Paul, the moment you surrender to the presence of God, you will hear the words of mercy: “Your guilt is gone, your sins are forgiven, be not afraid.”
And then will come the call: “Whom shall I send? Who will be my messenger, my fisher for human souls? Who will bear the love and mercy of Christ to others?”
That’s the choice we each face. Will you receive God’s mercy and hear God’s call? Or will you say, “Go away from me, Lord”?
That’s why we sing the same words as did the seraphim: “Holy! Holy! Holy! Lord.”
Will you risk encountering the risen Christ? Will you look into his face and receive his broken body, his blood poured out?
Still today, our God is asking …
“Whom shall I send”?